Beautifully.

Every morning while I am getting ready, I listen to Pandora on my phone (mom, this is the radio on my phone). After a particularly rough day at work yesterday, I woke up dreading the day to come. While in the shower, a song came on that I had never heard before. This song was the most heartbreaking song I had heard in a long time and for those of you who have had the pleasure of using my ipod/itunes, you know I have a weak spot for sappy songs. I was memorized by the song, but unfortunately, I was in the shower, so I wasn't able to look up what song it was (thank goodness for technology because I googled it.)

The song is called "Beautifully" by Jay Brannan. He is a gay man, so I am sure the song means something completely different to him than it does to me. The song is about a girl who falls for a guy and for whatever reason, he doesn't love her back. Maybe because of a recent situation I was in or maybe just because of the longing in the lyrics, this song really got to me. Even if you look past the boy/girl story line, I have been struggling with feeling good enough. Being the youngest/newest teacher at my school, I feel like it's a struggle every day to find my voice in the crowd. Somehow, this song got me through my day.

This is the best link on youtube I could find. Enjoy.

Sunshine.

It reached a high of 79 here today in Greenville. For me that meant an extra long recess, classroom door open to the parking lot, and an enjoyable car duty. This used to mean such different things for me. It would mean that I would skip class and go to the river, walk around campus, or lay outside on the PC lawn. I bet there are people out there right now. We would pull our blankets out, and lay with books, computers, and ipods. I miss those days, when the only care in the world was what time to take a shower so you could go eat dinner or what kind of beer to buy that weekend.

Oh, what I'd give to be laying in that lawn right now.

But, Brooke is on her way to Greenville. So, I am happy about that.

Julian(n)e.

When I was in high school, I had two good friends both named Lindsay(Lyndsey). I was very jealous of the fact that they were best friends AND they had the same name. *dumb* I know. I had never met anyone else named Juliane and definitely never expected to have a best friend with the same name.

Fast forward a couple of years to the summer of 2006. There were different groups for incoming freshman. You could say this is when I got my skills for stalking. I was even lucky enough to find my freshman year roommate this way. (woohoo). Skipping ahead a bit to move in day. In between my freak outs, unpacking, and trying to go back home, I made it to Jacobs for an Education Majors informational meeting. I was sitting in the hallway on one of those benches right out side the bathroom and out of the bathroom walks a very tall girl. I whispered to my parents, "Her name is Julianne." My parents, not aware of my facebook creeping, replied, "oh, do you know her?" "Oh no, Mom and Dad, I stalked her on facebook." The tall girl I am speaking of is now my best friend, Julianne Crew.

Julianne and I both joined Tri Sigma as freshman, where she gained the nick name J.Crew. This also led to my senior year cheer "J. J. Creeeew. J. J. Creeeeew!" Although, my favorite J.Crew song is "Jager and cigarettes, J.Crew is 22" which led to the whole chapter doing a rendition during pass down. Picture 50 girls singing it in rounds.. amazing.


I miss J.Crew, but SHE IS COMING TO VISIT THIS WEEKEND!!!!